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Probably because of my sheltered life..i am not really the kind who can compete with others like..you know in the society there will be stuffs like that..like in buisness world...designers..ya ..they compete for a job...and the best,the cream of the crop gets it.I don't think really up to that . For one i not born into the kind of life where i have to compete with someone to live...i lead quite a comfortable life in fact..haha..and so it would be difficult for me to just aquire the social skills to do so. I mean even if i finally grow into that kind of very strong and tough kind of person..i would not be happy working in that kind of enviroment..office politics and all...

Ya so i deceided to pick a route..that is not that..you know..ya..

i want to persue early childhood...

still asking around and researching for the best route to walk to that direction.

i hope my diploma..have a bit of affiliation that can just cut off a few years from the course..

rather then spend another four to three years studying...its abit unlikely la..because i am holding a design diploma..nothing to do with how to handle children at all..wakaka...

the next thing i can do is to go for private schools, the more reconized ones of course..

i heard that the gorverment has suggest some..so i probably will go do research on that..

my lecturer says its very expensive..so its best you start work first..then get the employer to sponsor you..i think what she meant by working first is like doing the admin work and all that la..ya..but you have to prove yourself..harder route..but then like she said..if you do it this way,at least you have a stable job , a company to work for. Ya... Its not easy la.. but what is ?? you reap what you sow.

its another suggestion that i can consider..
but then again even if i were to go for that ,
i feel i should have some knowledge of taking care of children..
can take some short courses or something.

yup..sigh...

BUT...i still want to be a children book illustrator..but i figured you can't just do that sololy to survive..reality just too harsh for dreams like that to come true..unless if course you are very good..and when i say,very good, i mean your work must stand out,have a unique style and all..among the many many many candidates from all over the world...i doubt i will have enough for myself to live...i just did that. Plus.. i am not a very technical person...software fool + computer idiot. Its hard la.. even in singapore...if you don't know how to use the softwares(professionally) its equals to going to hong kong and not knowing how to speak cantonese.

So i wish to spend more time brushing up my skills..drawing wise or technically so its proffessional enough to be out there...Its hard la...but i am willing to give it go...ones i've got what it takes, a stable job and life. I mean do you see the relations? children book illustrator..early childhood? yup..i bet i can learn some stuff while working in this industry that will help me with my works in the future...like what appeals to children and stuff.

I just like this line la...working with children..lots to learn but willing to put in the effort....otherwise how am i going to survive???

Hope i my dreams will come true..

and i will have a stable career and life.

meet a good man get married and have a few kids..

that will be my dream life la..

but to be honest i think the last option is quite unlikely..

my character and personality, its already hard enough to have friends accept me for who i am..how am i going to go beyond that?!!

but its sweet,don't you think? especially nowadays there are so many young couples...ya just seeing them push baby trollers hand to hand makes me envious of them lor..haha... and i will wonder whether i will ever come to this stage of life..

Hopefully ba..maybe i just haven't meet mr right yet.

no use rushing into a relationship...

ya but i do hope to have that kind happy family life...ya a family of my own...to find a good man among the other ... (-.-) ones...ya its already a victory liao lor...and who loves you for who you are..

it would probably be the icing on top on the already well, haha quite edible-looking cake.

may god bless me..