OVer the RaInBoW

Thats what everyone says isn't it? honestly before i came to poly..i didn't really getthe meaning of you can't please everyone...Now i know...haha finally..somehow internship changed me quite a bit...At least i more worldly now than before...They just nit pick la...honetly..sometimes it may not be whatyou have done..or something bad about you, it may just simply be they just don't like your face.childish but true..Theres this girl in my class who suddenly changed face just like that..i tried reflecting on what i have done that might of offended her..PETTINESS! and haha do be honest i am not the very sensitive kind la...still working on it though!

i think and i thought..nothing...one thing bad about me is that i give out wrong signals many times..and that will deepen the misuderstanding..really the more i tell myself not to care so much..the more i am wary of her..like will glance at her or what...and she took itthe wrong way..but come again..if a person dislikes you,she or he can find thousand of excuses to put you down.Its just so sickening la...everyday must see her face..at least the "wow" clique,the one that i have been having conflict with,but finally survived it(whew! thank goodness) rolls eyes... is not that bad now..we say hi to each other..no matter the feelings put in or real or fake,its still a "Hi"..a line between us that says "We go in peace.." you don't go overthe line i won't go over theline..and together we can survive poly without another Big situation.

The person against you..the one who is at the other side of the story in this whole conflict thing, may not be a bad person at all...afterall people show different sides of them in front of different people...and when or if they see you as a compepetitor,or enemy..that's when you see the side of them that is not so pretty.

I am so pissed off lor....but then again..its betterto think this way rather than..I HATE HER STUPID BITCH #8$%% ya.. At many times i think its better to look at a matter in a wider perspective...at both side of the story..it sorts of make you understand ..and the negativity won't be that strong..thus making you feel better...

To me now..i do develop a disliking for some people,

but so far i don't hate anyone...

because no one has actually gone so far..

as to hurt me so deeply to feel that way...

I have a BIG heart...

ha ha not big enough? wakaka...