OVer the RaInBoW

what is it about human relationships? i mean oh yah how about the so called friends?
i just can't bear the thought of having so many skin deep friends,though i know its part of life..i guess,what i am really sick of is having to play along with the game..everytime you must say hi,act friendly,other wise they will hate you,or maybe not hate la..will start talking about you,haha what difference does it makes anyway?act happy..i mean whats with them? i don't need people like that around me..so tiring! wear a mask...sigh...wth
human relationships according to my father is just to make your life easier....i mean like when you go into society,you will meet alot of skin deep people...most will want to know you for a reason,and that reason isn't becuz of friendship..you're lucky if you get to that stage....but i guess,it's all up to a person's character or personality ba...meeting someone that can care and understand you is really hard...some may have many skin deep friends..and no bestie or good friends...
the grass on the other side is always greener...but it wouldn't seem like it seems to you,if you actually step on the other side and look..you never know what a person's life really is like...she or he maybe beautifying his or her life just to seem strong or whatever the reason is...

its hard to find someone who will care for you out of the friend ships you make outside..they smile and talk to you infront of you then turn around and start talking..yes these are called hypocripts and i am use to meeting these kind of people already..thank god for my past failed friendships,or betrayals for making me a person that don't trust anybody that easily....

i am pissed...if not for my dream..if not for survival ,i am not willing to follow this style of living....
or sometimes at somewhere..in front of his friends,i must force myself to say hi..just to give him face...wa lau....

i don't why ,but i'm born with the thinking..i don't care if you're older than me..if you want me to respect you,there must be a reason for me to do so...i don't just respect you becuz you are older than me in terms of age...

i am just that kind of girl..i am surprised sometimes at how strong minded i can be...

like When i want something..i will try my very best to achieve my goal..perservere to the very end...

i hate to please people...and i never say sorry if i am not in the wrong..this side of me emerge especially when someone crosses the line...or plainly when obstacles happen in my life.

so far no one that i know of seen this side of me yet..

life is so bitter...and inperfect...

i am sick of it but somehow i must accept it.

this incident gives me an extra reminder to appreciate the people who care about me,who loves me more...

everything something happens i tell myself to just let it go..i mean why do you want to keep such things in your heart?i rather keep happy things in there(haha sounds so kiddy)

posted by iRiS2U @ 8:22 PM