OVer the RaInBoW

misunderstanding or is it just me? ha ha

am i too paranoid? or too self consious? too bothered about what others think of me? scared that people will think badly of me and not be my friends?how can i be happy like that?it's just so tirirng to think this way..like recently there is this party going on at our house, there was this group of my brother's friends,there was a girl who said she was scared of me(0.0!)ha ha initially i thought it was my behavior that scared her (see how paranoid i can get?) but then my bro told me that she said i stared at her like i want to eat her up...too hostile i think(- .-")no la.... don't know each other well ,i feel very shy and gan ga to approach her too...i am always worried about such stuff. what for?? it's so stupid! scared that people will think i am mean weird and not be my friend...or maybe worried that everyone will turn against me and in the end i am alone... i don't know how to express myself and thus i always pass the wrong message to others...but i think i am just too paranoid....too scaredy....now i am scared that people will read my blog ,get the wrong message and pass it around...i just want a simple and happy life...don't want to get all mixed up...ha ha now i feel better liao....after letting it out.... i watched ron ng's video, while he was dancing,felt alot better,and he danced so well! so amazed!!!

posted by iRiS2U @ 3:01 PM